Tuesday, October 27, 2009

The Circus

I've been a musician for a long time...almost 3/4 of my life. I love everything about it: driving for hours on end, eating horribly, living on bad gas station coffee and energy drinks, the sound check, the hurry up and wait, the heat of the lights on stage, the energy from the crowd, and the complete exhaustion that sets in after you give your all.

A lot of people compare it to a circus. That's a pretty decent analogy, really. It's all so crazy and you don't have time to process half of what's going on.

My home life is a circus, too. This morning the dog had an accident on the basement stairway (three guesses who got to clean it up), Baby Tank had a spina bifida-related problem (a minor one...just took time to fix), kids were yelling at each other and fighting over the bathroom, and amidst all that I had to get showered and ready for work.

One of my deficiencies as a functional adult is, as Cheesi will tell you, my inability to balance things. I'm really, really bad at it. I go to work, play and promote my music, run a guild, lead raids, deal with kids, etc, etc, etc. I manage to pull it off, but rarely with flying colors.

I haven't played WoW much in the past week, but I did get online this weekend for quite a while. It was a lot of fun. I ran Ulduar on Mis and monkeyed around with a couple of Hallow's End achievements, and I leveled Mactire the Death Knight in the hope that one day in the near future he'll get to snag some Northren herbs for his Inscription.

But, like most guilds, we've had some drama. We are losing one of our absolute best raiders to another guild on another server. That's a huge blow to EoF. He's one of the best DPS Warriors I've ever seen, very well geared, loyal, dedicated, and a smart, smart player. Not to mention he's a really cool guy.

In addition to that, there's been a rift developing over something that happened while I was away. I won't go into details, but it's something that will strike fear into the heart of anyone who's ever managed a guild as a GM or an officer: Loot Drama.

I had a blast this weekend, but finding out about these things was like a punch in the gut. My 9-5 job is crazy, my music job is crazy, my house is crazy, and when I see things like this happen (among adults, mind you...which makes it all the more frustrating) I just can't seem to muster the energy to put on a happy face and deal with the situation in a rational manner.

My problems with balance should have deterred me from starting a guild. Either I live online and neglect everything around me or I hop on once in a while and neglect the guild. I'm not good with gray areas.

I've gotta figure this out.


Nitedragon said...

no worries my friend. forget about WoW drama. grown ppl tend to revert back to their 2 year old days and cause problems. you're a great guild leader. i just wish i was in the game to help out.

Mister K said...

Yes, don't let the drama get to you. Usually things like that will happen no matter what. Its just a matter of time. They also usually work themselves out too is the good thing :)

Shy said...

Loot drama...such a shame since the loot will be redundant in like 2months but the friendship could've lasted :(

Jessika said...

My sympathies Misneach. There's no way around it -- being a GM can suck sometimes. And like the dog's accident on the stairs, the shit always seems to happen when you aren't around, but you still have to deal with it.

Misneach said...

Thanks, all. We're soldiering on, I just wish sometimes that people would, like Shy said, realize that the phat lewtz they're getting all worked up about will be useless once we're getting EoTs from heroics and buying stuff two tiers higher. Then they'll look back and realize that maybe they should've burned fewer bridges.

Well, as one of my college profs would say, onward and upward.

Misneach said...

And Jess, that analogy is so perfect I wish I would've thought of it myself.